So, I’m sitting here at 6:03am (eastern) on Wednesday in PJ bottoms & a very ill matching sweatshirt kinda thing. Hair in bun, glasses on, caffeine free & I have bed breath. Thank goodness I’m alone! The view out our living room windows is beautiful. Our patio, backyard & garden are so pretty & serene. I’m enjoying the quiet morning sounds. But, I woke up early because my mind was racing. I hate when my mind has a mind of it’s own. The nerve of my mind to keep me up, making me toss & turn. I need more sleep! Why can’t I shut my brain off?
I’m not a procrastinator per se. But, my track record in life is poor when it comes to starting something new for myself. The number one reason is lack of confidence. The number two reason is I worry too much about failure. The third reason is finding/making time for myself. I have denied myself so many creative endeavors straight out of the gates.
I’m finally doing something that is all me, fun, creative & hopefully inspirational. I feel exhilarated, excited & upbeat. My mind is constantly swirling with ideas for my blog. This hobby will be so rewarding & fulfilling.
Now, I’m in a new phase of blogging: The reality. There has been a huge learning curve, but it has been amazing to get my brain cranking in a different capacity. Taking photos, selecting topics, writing the content, remembering details & figuring the best process is an immense feeling of autonomy. I’ve also noticed a different fear towards blogging that I never had in the beginning. A fear that I just don’t have the physical time to shoot, edit, write, or post many days of the week. This fear leads me to my next fear. Will readers leave me if I take time for myself??? Have any of you felt like this? The one thing that I created to be all my own is the one thing that now I’m afraid of. Am I crazy? Did this question ever enter your mind in this stage of blogging?
I think I just need to move forward & quit making a big deal out of this….. because it’s not a big deal! I’m not curing cancer, solving world hunger, it is just a tiny little bit of me that I’m sharing with the big world. I know the reality is I can’t spend days & days taking oodles of pictures of myself & neglect the responsibilities of life that lay ahead. So moving forward, I pledge to keep telling stories, posting goofy photos of myself, but just know there will be more days filled with important priorities to manage, & yes, days spent in PJ bottoms & a very ill matching sweatshirts. It’s 9:32am, guess what I’m still wearing?
- Top & Flatforms: H&M
- Culottes: Topshop (seasons past)
- Belt: Leaf Boutique
- Clutch: vintage
- Watch: Fossil
- Cuff: Bauble Bar
How do you manage the pressures of blogging? I would love to hear from you! Thanks so much for stopping by! Hope your day is great xoxoxox